Friday, May 29, 2009
I've been feeling like my life has gotten boring and well I suppose I let it get that way. I was feeling quite down still but decided I should to to the club to spice things up a bit. Maybe getting out will busy my time and have me occupy my mind with fun things. Spending too much time alone results in alot of reminiscing and depressing thoughts...
Anyway, Tonight I went out to club fabric with my friend misato and her friend Ming. As almost always for fabric, there was alot of people lined up oustide. I heard someone say "You're Shannon right?" Oh yea~ how did he know? [it was a host kei looking guy] He recognized me from facebook after a little bit more looking i remember who he is too. Appearently, Im very easy to spot because i look just like the my photos according to him. Seeing someone dressed decently gave me a bit of spark of hope that maybe tonight might be a good crowd.
This was a strange night really. We started in on random shots i cant even remember what i was drinking but i already had 5 shots and i wasnt even buzzed! what whats that? We hanged out in the Vip section for a little while but there werent too many people there, it was sort of boring. I danced a little and misato and i were looking out for maybe some cute guys.. MAYBE? no prevail. I was looking for the guy in teh line, he seemed to be the only one interesting but i couldnt find him. [ I later found out he decided not to enter the club]
We all were bored and decided to go home. This is the first time i was bored at a club. How lame....
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Yesterday I went to my cousin on my dad's side's wedding. I have not seen any of my relatives on that side for at least 2 years and other than my cousin Raymond and Uncle Benson and wife, I have not seen anyone for around 15 years or more. [Yes i know, that makes me around 3-5yrs old]
I wore a pink RF dress with a new knitted white furry bolero? and proceeded to the front to greet the wedding party. Everyone stared at me trying to figure out who I was. They only then realized after they saw my dad that I must be Peter's daughter, Tim's cousin.
As I greeted the wedding party my cousins and I were not even familiar with eachother's names LAWL! After the pictures were taken I proceed to greet uncle Benson and auntie Cynthia. Auntie Cynthia told me I look like my mom! I was soo happy!
It was a tradition chinese banquet style wedding. The bride changed dresses about 3-4x and played the "egg" game among other games. The egg game is where the bride after being blindfolded takes an egg and puts it up from the bottom of the grooms right pant leg and guides it up passed the crotch and then back down the other leg trying not to either break the egg or drop it.
Of course, there's the bouquet toss and the guarder toss. To my surprize the bride had a PERFECT throw! most bouquets end up really high then acutely straight down or it just kinda struggles and twiddles down to the single ladies.. either way most brides cant huff the thing too far. But hers FLEW!! in a perfect arch. you'd think she played football or something... People thought it would hit the wall behind the single ladies but alas it lands in the arms of a girl in the back. haha she was so surprised.
At the end of the wedding banquet, I shook hands with my cousin and family. My cousin Tim told me I look like a shibuya club girl ahaha. but other than that he told me [after he asked what school i was in] I used to go to langara too back in the good days went there was a smoking area and we played Big2 all day. But nevertheless, work hard at what you want, believe me, no one ever thought i would have turned out the way i did. [ Hes now a successful lawyer, before he was just an normal unmotivated kid]
As a side note, even though I look so much like my dad [or at least before] I look significantly different than all my cousins who are all broad shouldered and quite large [if you put us all together I look like the runt on a football team]. Im also the youngest. [Im 20, the rest are in their mid 30s and around 40ish]
We all know that Canada or probably most of if not all of northamerica in general do not look with kind eyes towards anything outstanding in appearance. When i dress in Japanese styled clothing [which was vk [sometimes lolita or cosplay but thats kinda expected] or gyaru] people always stare and say omg what a freak! eww its soo wierd *stare stare stare* or omg such a short skirt, *dirty look dirty look dirty look* or OMG what wacked out fashion *stare stare stare* *glare*
Their mentality was that any vk person is a feak, any lolita is insane, any cosplayer is wierd beyond words, and any girl in short skirt and heels MUST be a hooker [and any guy who dresses well and takes care of their appearance MUST be gay or less of a man"]
But now.. they dotn know how to react to me. My style is no less flamboyant than before in fact my gyaru style has been stepped up to even LESS casual. My hair is blonde again,but now extremely long and I even wear blue contact lenses. Now more people than before stare but unlike before its not negative. Its either positive or just shocked and dont know what to think... Their faces can be translated as so "whoa thats WILD! and yet subdued and doll-like.... thats a short skirt and very high heeled flashy shoes but somehow it doesnt look slutty? 0_o.. its WIERD! but kinda beautiful.. uh...."
I believe part of this is to do with my attitude. As i got older i cared less and less but I always cared a little. But after going to Japan and finding out going all out and looking the way i want to look results in the max positive results and popularity, I find vancouver ppl's opinion about how i look not only not important but worthless and of no value whatsoever. And i dont care if I dont appeal to most boys around here and in fact scare most people away because its not like any of them are even close to my type. [even teh ones that were not bad don't cut it anymore]
I've come to terms [at least at this very moment] that I will be single for quite a while from now and that my chances of finding my type here next to zero. SO why bother trying at all. Therefore I shall just go 100% of how i want to look instead of the 80% from before. HAHA.. and I ALMOST thought of keeping my brown hair. HAHAH becoming blonde again has given me much happiness. I may not have been able to take much of my lifestyle in japan back with me but I realized now I DID manage to take one piece with me. And that was the look and now with a new found confidence.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Kogyaru~~ Yea I know we have all graduated at least for a couple years but why not wear a school uniform just for the heck of it? So viki, shawna, Naoki and I went to Richmound in school uniform. Well not Naoki but the rest of us XD
We basically just walked around alot and took some purikura. Later, We went to the giant sushi place in Richmound with Naoki. Naoki was overwhelmed by the size~ it was soo funny. We taught him alot of english words and overall had alot of fun.
Naoki was a fun guy to hang with too bad he's going back to Japan soon..
Friday, May 15, 2009
My mom turns the big 5-0~~ Nothing to big but a nice small party at a contemporary Chinese fine dining resturant.
Meanwhile we were discussing a bit of business of when My mom's business partner is going to hk and maybe going to learn some hair. We were flipping through Ageha and she says that they're too skinny LOL. We just looked at her she was just as or even skinnier than them LOL but she didnt admit it. But nevertheless she was very interested in the ageha hair which made me happy. I also got to meet Wendy's mom for teh first time. Shes really cool and hip for her age. She seemd to like me alot too. She gave my mom these very pretty pink flowers for her bday as well as treating us to dinner.
While we waited for the food I presented my mom with her bday present, the one that Ryuu and I picked out at Asakusa~ *sigh* the memories... But anyway, she loved it! it was exactly what she was looking for. =3
It was my first time at a resturnat such as this. It was a course meal. THe first thing that came out was absolute delish! it was a soup with quail meat inside a cocnut, next came some really large scallop and omg just soo much wonderful food.